scaredOKAY, FIRST THINGS FIRST. "FANCY SOME MORE?" ADSKLFJAFDKLJASJLDFK;ADGKLJSD. SEXUALLY CHARGED VICTORIAN KNOCKDOWN DRAG-OUT IN AN ALLEYWAY. THE ACTUAL SCENE HAS NOT EVEN HAPPENED YET AND ALREADY I AM RUINED FOR LIFE. I SHIP IT. LIKE. BURNING. SO HARD IT FEELS LIKE SOMEONE HAS SET MY SOUL ON FIRE AND THEN TRIED TO PUT OUT THE FIRE WITH ACID WHILE AT THE SAME TIME TRYING TO CUT MY HEART OUT OF MY CHEST WITH A KNITTING NEEDLE. I SHIP THEM EVEN WHEN THEY'RE ACTIVELY TRYING TO KILL EACH OTHER. REALLY ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY'RE ACTIVELY TRYING TO KILL EACH OTHER. AND IF THAT'S FUCKED UP, THEN I DON'T EVER WANT TO BE NOT FUCKED UP.
Are we all clear on that? Right, moving on.
I cannot wait till he sees her. Cannot. Wait. I mean, I'm looking forward to a whole whack of things about this premiere, but I think that moment is what I'm looking forward to the very most.
I was all safe and cosy in the knowledge that of course Present!Helen is not going to kill Past!John in the alley, because that would mess with the future, and Ashley would cease to exist, and Helen would be no better than John would have been if he'd been able to go through with his Grand Plan, and it would make most of what she said in "Into The Black" hypocritical as fuck, and I'd have to climb through my television screen and punch her in the throat. And I really do love her a whole hell of a lot, so I don't want to have to do that. But then I remembered that she'd already had the embryo frozen by 1898. So...shit.
But I'm calling shenanigans on the whole "wishing him dead" thing anyway. For every opportunity she's taken to try to kill him over the years, she's pussied out of at least two more, and she always, always tries to stop him whenever he offers himself up as a noble sacrifice, even when she knows it's for the good of herself/the Sanctuary/the world at large. (And even when she thought he'd just killed Bigfoot, FFS. I really need to do a feelings parade about the webisodes at some point, too, because I've only recently been watching them. and seriously. Feelings. Everywhere.) She doesn't want to kill him. I mean, she might think she wants to, and I'm sure sometimes she actually wants to, and some small part of her probably always wants to, but deep down in her heart of hearts? Nuh-uh. Partly because of all the feelings she always has had and always will have for him, and partly because she feels responsible for him. BECAUSE SHE IS RESPONSIBLE FOR HIM. YEAH, BITCHES. I SAID IT. She laid claim to the source blood experiment, so she can damn well lay claim to the consequences.
I'm still intrigued by how Ripper!John fits into all this, since the Ripper (theoretically) shut up shop in 1888, and we're now in 1898. But I will take whatever they give me and devour it like a hungry baby.
We are working on the assumption that Present!John is still alive, right? Because this has been
I JUST HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS ABOUT JOHN DRUITT, OKAY? I AM OVERFLOWING WITH JOHN DRUITT FEELINGS.
I have been bending Tumblr over a tree stump and making it squeal like a pig this past week. Seriously, I'm amazed I haven't crashed the site. (Like that's hard.) This is an ongoing thing. My apologies to anyone who follows me.
